Day 1, Post 1

I guess it’s really hard seeing the person you love stop loving you back. Watching the emotions that you once felt, slipping away. 

I used to love you more than this, I used to love him like every day was the best day of my life, now, it’s like it’s the worst. 

My emotions have been dragged out of me, I can remember what it felt like to be happy, and what it felt like to be utterly in awe of one person, yet I sit here, and I wander, how can so many feelings of love, turn into feelings of sadness. You talk as if our days our numbered, as if you’re okay that we don’t say good night anymore, and the truth is my love, I don’t remember when you last said you loved me. 

I guess that in itself shows it all. 

How do I get back to a happy place? How do I get through something when to get through it, I have to rip myself apart.

I guess the truth is J, I guess where the truth lies, is that we aren’t happy anymore, your heart, my heart aren’t one no more. You and me aren’t meant to be.

The saddest thing is, I don’t want to be thinking of these things, I don’t want to lose the one person who knows me best because I fear that maybe that shows, that its me that’s the problem.

God I hope this ends, ends as in ends.

Or that we end this dreadful pain.